Things that are randomly (mis)placed

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We have no actual recollection of anything we had experienced. Our reality is made up of things we've rendered plausible. Thus the question - If we have the tendency to remember things by the way it fits our perception, is that notion we define as reality something we can actually rely on?

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People, in general, are surprisingly unreliable when it comes to remembering things the way they actually were. We've made up our entire reality and that's all we need to know.

Read the signs!
On my way to work this morning, I noticed this sign that had "Customs, 500m ahead.
I took a second there to try to recall this place. I've passed this way countless times and it never occurred to me that there may be something else close by. 

After a gave it a decent thought, I did remember there was an airport nearby, but it was nowhere near 500m. Things just weren't making any sense. 
That got me into thinking about some other real life scenarios I had experienced before and in what way I had formed memories of such events. 
That's when it hit me - I am delusional. I had been delusional about things and intentionally made them suit my perception, when in reality things were significantly different. 

Have I become delusional and at what point exactly, or was I like this all along? Not sure if I can give a proper response here, but the fact is - I got mislead. My mind has been playing tricks on me and I fell for it. I fell hard.

So, is reality...real?
I was listening to an audiobook recently that said that people never really have a clear representation of past events and that we only remember fragments that made sense to us at the time. 
In summary, it all comes down to our ability to improvise and fill in the gaps. Apart from the fact that we have such a powerful mind that's capable of reshaping reality in a certain sense, the point is - we can't really be sure about anything. 

That frightens me a little. Does that mean that all those times I got hurt or was mistreated, every time I got criticized, or worse, every time I actually enjoyed a certain experience...was it all fake? Was none of it authentic? 
Well, not necessarily. Whereas I can't deny the fact I did made up plenty od things, a part of those experiences has to be genuine.

It's the sensation that guides me along the way that's authentic. Although the experience itself, or at least my remembrance of it, may not be the most accurate, it's the sensation it caused that made it stuck in my head.

Whenever you think or you believe or you know, you're a lot of other people: but the moment you feel, you're nobody-but-yourself.

I guess what I'm trying to say here is - as long as we're getting something from that experience, does it really matter if it actually happened? There's just so much happening inside our heads, so much we don't fully understand. If we see reality through the lenses of our own experience, does that mean that there is no such thing as objective reality?
Is common sense not so common, after all?

Is the experience itself enough?
I radically oppose the idea that something has to be proven in order to be trustworthy.
How many times have you gone through a breakup, only to discover at one point that the whole thing was simply not as...important as we had the tendency to assign a certain value to it?

However, does that devalue the intensity of the experience itself?
My answer is no.

Yes, there are facts and it is important to stick to them in times the occasion requires us to. but is that it? Are we supposed to simply accept the fact that we, truly, have no idea what's happening around us at any given time?
If that's the case, than what makes an experience of reality credible? What makes reality real?

The real answer here is - does it matter? If it made sense to you, I suppose that's the only confirmation you'll ever need.
Who are WE to say that children have no actual experiences of events they claim to have had? We, who aren't even sure about our own experience and memories of it?

Stick to your delusions. That's the only thing you'll ever get to be sure of.

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